Hello~... Kirbybunny here.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! Hope 2016 is a good year!

Yeah! Happy New Year to you too.

*sigh*
What am I going to do now that I officially can't draw anymore?
I don't do much except chat... and rp... and think...
Im not sure I can write a story. Id have to think up a lot of stuff to make sure the story continues from start to finish. I don't want it to end up like the first (which was my only) story I tried to do.
I don't really do a lot in real life and I still don't have friends in real life either. I barely have time to play the games I have either... and my arms both still hurt. My right hurts more than my left and I don't feel well and I don't seem to be getting any better. Plus I feel like more of a ghost here, but thats my fault for feeling shy as a box and... I just can't do it.
But its okay. I just have to keep going. I'll be alright. Don't worry. I just.. have to figure this out... Im not sure if I can. I don't even know if i'll get better anymore, but I still have to keep going. I don't want anyone to worry and I want to be there for my friends online. I chose to do this and I have to keep going no matter how im feeling. Even if im lonely.

I'm sorry you're hurting.

*hugs*

Im sorry too.

*Hugs*

*pats his back*

Im not sure what im doing now. Coming here at 2am to. I don't even know.

I guess its because I feel bad for not being here, and at the same time. Think to myself since I finish chatting with my friend around this time and have nothing left to do, but go, but this time. I finally decided to come here.
Its nothing to worry about. I think too much and trying not to have another breakdown again, but that was because I answer questions that seem to make that trigger which in turn start to make me type too much. I know Im not suppose to, but it just keeps going. I don't know whats wrong with me this year... I seem to be only going down from here with no way up. I just want to get better is all. Stop getting worse please.

Can you get better?

That I don't know. I hope I get better cause it seems to never get better and only worse. For both of my arms and how im feeling.
I did get something called Salonpas patches months ago. I thought they were working... They peel off my hairs.
Then I got some CoolHeat creme. I also thought it was helping though it burns the eyes and its hard to not rub them when you put the creme on your hands since thats where they hurt.
I ran out of both of them...

Geez....

Now Im just trying to stay online as I am. Even if it hurts... Unless it hurts too much. As long as Im there so my friends aren't bored cause I worry too much about everyone else first before myself.
I don't know what I'll do if this pain goes all the way to March.

Aw...

Dude. Don't damage yourself.

Yeah. Look into using a dictation program. You know, speech to text. Don't type so much if your arms hurt all the time.

Like dragonfire?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

K...

Uhh... What? speech to text? How Is that even possible? and how can someone use it?

Im pretty sure Im already damaged... I feel broken. Or do you mean it in a different way?

Wait whats a dictation?

Chris, computers know how to understand English. Every smart phone can do it. I haven't used it on a PC, but it shouldn't be too hard to find.

Dictation is when you say something and someone else writes it down. Or in this case, a computer does.

Looks like I can't use it then. Im mostly online using my WiiU and new3dsxl.
Also It would feel weird trying to say what I want to type since I rarely talk and if I did try to talk to type I would end up with too much because I think about what to say and talk to myself and I would have to speak up since im told I talk low anf I don't think our laptop has a microphone to use so I would have to buy a microphone just to talk type to people, but then I would have to be on computer everyday to do this, but I can't go to messages on miiverse so in the end. I don't think I want to do that. Sorry for talking to much...
I don't feel so good today..

You have to do something though. Poor Chris...

Kirbybunny wrote:
Also It would feel weird trying to say what I want to type since I rarely talk and if I did try to talk to type I would end up with too much because I think about what to say and talk to myself and I would have to speak up since im told I talk low anf I don't think our laptop has a microphone to use so I would have to buy a microphone just to talk type to people, but then I would have to be on computer everyday to do this, but I can't go to messages on miiverse so in the end. I don't think I want to do that. Sorry for talking to much...

I have the same problem with talking chris.

I used to.

Did you?