Hello~... Kirbybunny here.

Well, you should. You definitely need to tell these things to someone you can trust and who can help you.

Sadly I don't know anyone like that in real life...
Because im a shy, nervous, wreck who's to scared to talk about their feelings in real life...

Relatives?

I have relatives, but I don't know what relatives your referring to.
I rarely talk... Unless someone talks to me, but I still don't say much...

How do you, um, live? Is someone taking care of you?

Yes. Our grandparents are taking care of us. Again.

"Our"?

We have grandparents.
Its more than just me their taking care of.

Who else?

Well tell your grandparents about these things.

My two brothers, and our cousin sometimes.

Why would I tell them?

Oh, ok...

Chris, it's clear you want help at least subconsciously, or else you wouldn't be telling us all this. But I can't give you what you need, so you need to tell someone close to you. By close I mean literally and metaphorically. Tell your grandparents, or your siblings, just someone.

Im sorry. I wish I could... But I can't bring myself to...

It's the only way! Do they even know how much pain you feel in your arms?

No...

Chris, tell someone at least the fact that you're in constant physical pain. That's not the kind of thing you're supposed to keep secret!

I can't talk to people in real life. I have a really really hard time doing so.

I'm sorry but that's a thing you'll have to get past, at least for this. You need to let someone know you're suffering, or it's just going to keep happening.

I wish I could get past it then because it takes alot of forcing to get myself to talk to anyone about anything in real life, and online when im asking someone a important question. Thats how bad it is for me...

Well you're talking to me so this is practice. I'm your neighborhood forum admin raptor.

Its not the same sadly or I would have tried talking in real life better many years ago... Online and real life are two different places for me, and feel like two different places.
It doesn't feel like practice either... It feels like im chatting..

You have to try. Even giving a note would work. I know it can be scary but this is how you get help.

Have you said anything yet? Or thought about how you might tell them that you need help?

I haven't said anything.
Im going to finally give up, stop trying, leave and stop being online, and make it all stop for me... I just have to say goodbye to my friends and everywhere I chat at.